2018年3月28日
電影Goodbye Christopher Robin告別的既是故事主人翁的童年,也是主人翁銳意擺脫的一重fictional身份,其間的分別不是真與假,而是幻與真,彷彿一塊鏡子中的裏與外,外與裏, 花和鏡中花,Robin the fictional and Robin the boy。
Robin the boy不喜歡Robin the fictional,不喜歡他以他之名,揚才露己,更不喜歡父親A.A.Milne之所以馳譽天下,憑的是Robin the fictional,不是Robin the boy!許多年後當Robin the boy已長成Robin the man,還是意難平,在Enchanted Places的後記裏幽幽寫道:it seemed to me, almost, that my father had got to where he was by climbing upon my infant shoulders, that he has filched from me my good name and had left me with nothing but the empty fame of being his son.
Oh! My good name! 賜余以嘉名!名字界定了身份,也界定了誰和誰的關係。原來Robin the boy有過許多名字,小時太小,讀不出Milne來,倒錯讀成Moon,爸爸聽在耳裏,從此只叫兒子做Moon。兒子應該很歡喜,Moon這個小名從此成了父子之間的一個密碼,一片exclusive territory,好個enchanted place,因此我疑心Moon之厭惡Christopher Robin,不在於盛名之累,卻在於那可惡的Robin the fictional霸佔了他的血肉爸爸。Moon最愛黏着爸爸。
世間的兒子也會希望黏着爸爸?
小雲雀翻開我家中的一卷Winnie-the-Pooh,其題詞曰:To lay this book in your lap/... Say you like it?/... Because it's yours-Because we love you.
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